Its been such a long time since I last wrote a blog entry that I personally would be surprised if someone is really reading this *unless of course they were threatened with their life by me* . And this i had promised myself would be one thing i would do religiously though as all my other promises this too had gone straight down the flush....But here I am writing perhaps only for myself not because I have to no... no ones out there really looking forward to what my next blog entry would be or how my life is goin on....frankly speaking sometimes life seems so pointless and so here I am sitting all alone in my room and thinking of all the stuffs thats going wrong with me....poor grades...lack of a proper social life have been trying to avoid people as much as I can mostly involuntarily (and few knowingly who really used to get on my nerves)........And I think life used to be much better.......And I remember all the great times I had with my friends...having had a best friend.....nice grades and being much more happier....Was life really that great back then???
And that brings me to the whole point of me writing todays blog....why did I suddenly feel like writing today....maybe because sitting alone feeling so pathetic about how my life is turning out did make feel like I needed to go through a process of self evaluation something i have been avoiding for very long now......And so here I am thinking about what went so wrong??? And now that i think of it maybe just maybe lifes not that bad....I mean ok have poor grades and stuff....But dude I am no idiot and I know I can make those ok.....its not like this is the first time my grades have gone down....And I remember how I failed in maths once k it was just a unit test.....yet maths became one of my strongest subjects with time.....Me thinks sometimes u have to really really face those disappointments.....coz these roller coaster rides are what makes life more of a challenge....And as far as my social life is concerned I am pretty much amused at how i do have some great friends who know me exactly well for the jerk I am and how i did use to have some old ones.....so I dont really think I am goin to change in a day or something but yes I do love each and every friend of mine though I am a bit emotionally drained and so dont know how to put it otherwise but they do mean a lot to me.....And most importantly the one thing I am most afraid of is hurting my parents because I am good...I am really good at stuff and I could and should have made my life much better but i never did.....and so here I am sitting and thinking what was the whole point of writing this blog today and I think it has let me take off a little weight off from my heart and my head feels a lot more lighter....And I can clearly see things in a new light......I know maybe I would have to face much more disappointment but what the hell...think am ready for that....Lifes not that bad and so from here on I am goin to write one good thing that happened to me in the day at least I can try......
so here is the 1st good thing
I am alive .... sounds pretty lame right but believe me its a great deal.
And about jadoo....dont u worry u will always get ur fair share of special appearances mate.
signing off
chao... bubye.... peace
ViN@Y
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